flashback nine months

(8wks and 3days)

(20 wks ultrasound)
he used to look like this inside me floating around for nine months.

(june 8th, 2008)
this is how he looked when he came out of me. this is literally two minutes after his birth.

and now another nine months later, this is how he looks. it’s hard to believe that he used to be one little cell. he turns out to be a very happy boy who smiles a lot, laughs a lot, cries hard and plays hard.

he’s been…


cruising, standing and walking with support,

opening drawers and grabbing mama’s bra, and running around, baby-talking, pointing at things,

feeding himself solid food,

chewing on the cord…

of papa’s headphones,

…and making a mess wherever he goes.

i have been talking to him ever since he was born explaining what i was doing and asking him what he would want to do. when he was very little, i used to get so excited to hear random sounds he made. even when he just made an ‘ah~’ sound, it made me jump. it sounded like he was responding to me.

he started to vocalize more when he was three months old. there was one point where he kept saying, ”blah blah blah” all the time. nowadays, he has started to babble more and more, trying to imitate what i say. when i sing to him and make silly gestures with my arms, he tries to imitate what i sing and do. when paul and i talk in front of him, he waves his arms up and down and say ‘uh~ gguah~ bha~’ etc. i think he wants to join the conversation.

he has started saying ‘da~da’ and ‘mama’ a lot. paul and i have been telling him who is ‘papa’ and ‘mama’. today he kept saying ‘mamma, pappa’ continuously. i almost cried.

i know babies cry when they are hungry. elijah was like that too. nowadays, he’s more direct. he grabs my face and pulls it toward him, opens his mouth and bites down on my lips, then starts sucking them…hard. he’s also saying ‘mamma, mamma’. ‘mamma’ is a japanese baby word for ‘food’. it’s no coincidence that ‘mama’ (mother) and ‘mamma’ (food) sound similar.

elijah has been a very smiley boy, but nowadays his smiles are more deliberate and when he smiles looking into your eyes, he’ll melt your heart. he used to crack up whenever i made some exaggerated gasping sound. nowadays, he laughs so hard at so many things. paul is so good at making him laugh. he’s such a good papa.

paul and i have been crawling with elijah. elijah likes to play a crawling game with us. he starts crawling then stops and looks back to see if any of us are following him. if we starts to chase him he’d laugh and crawl away really fast, or stop and crawl back toward us.

elijah and i play a bear game. we pretend that we are bears. we crawl around the house, exploring, then i stop and pretend i’m sleeping. he’d comes over to me and climbs up on me and starts slapping my body. i “wake up” and we start crawling around again.

the first nine months with elijah were full of happiness, tears, laughter and lots of “holy mackerel!” moments. as a person who had never taken care of any living creatures (no pets, no plants even), taking care of a baby is like becoming a self-taught artist – i have no idea what to do. i had no clue what-so-ever about babies. paul and i did all our best to figure out as things came up. and elijah have taught us what to do.

there were times when it was very hard. but it was worth it, because i can see this smiley face every single day.

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  1. Dawn’s avatar

    Aww, I’ve really enjoyed reading this post. I have a tiny three-week-old, and there’re many frustrating days and nights, because she seems to enjoy not sleeping and has become my extra appendage, but your post reminds me of everything I have to look forward to!!

  2. ksklein’s avatar

    wonderful post to read. and your son is a cutie. love the mischiveous twinkle in his eye. :)

  3. Ku’s avatar

    My everyday is like that and although I in the past had grown up with animals nothing ever prepared me for Kyo but when I read what you are saying it brings tears to my eyes because although I love my baby being so small I cannot wait to see him grow. Elijah is so beautiful! You are doing a wonderful job, you can see the love you two give him reflecting in his face. Wonderful. He is your magnum opus. :)

  4. yuka’s avatar

    thanks a lot :)

    uh~ those early days with a baby… hang in there. those tough nights will soon be over. ganbatte!

    he’s very quiet when he’s doing something he’s not supposed to do… like eating paper and lots of it @!@

    i know how you feel… babies will soon become independent and be away from mama’s arms… when i think like that, i feel like i can manage the toughest time…

  5. laura’s avatar

    Uh, I cried after reading that. Seventeen year olds shouldn’t cry at stuff like this but I did.

    I think I’m going to back to my friend’s church and get my job back at the nursery, now.

  6. yuka’s avatar

    good for you + have fun :))


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