this is elijah.
it’s hard to see, but his finger is turning into a caterpillar. and of course, he’s eating it.
i bought a new drawing desk recently. it’s set up in the living room facing the front yard.
i usually stay up and draw after elijah goes to bed. i do some housework first before i get down to it. i usually draw from 10 to 2 am-ish.
night is very quiet. i try not to look out the window because i might see a ghost or a someone standing right at the window. i can’t make an eye contact with them.
i used to draw non-stop without sleep otherwise i would lose interest in the drawing. but i can’t do that anymore now that i have a baby. elijah wakes up at 6 am most days, sometimes 5 am. he’s instantly superawake and ready to go wild. so i need to be ready for fun in the morning.
after one year of training, i am now capable of drawing one area per day, finishing step by step over several days without losing interest in my own work.
i sometimes go to the basement to draw. i turn on a ‘curb your enthusiasm’ dvd and draw on the low coffee table, sitting on the floor. i find myself laughing so hard even though i’ve already watched all the episodes a million times. i love larry david. ‘can’t go on, must go on…’
until this point, i was doing my best to follow the patterns of real butterflies. eventually i got bored, so i made up my own butterfly patterns as i finished the drawing.
here it is: “new wings”.