july 22, wednesday 1981 cloudy
“yesterday, i bathed with tomoko-chan and she washed my head. it felt very good.”
i still remember the frosted glass with snowflake pattens in the bathroom in the house we lived in from age 5 to 14. tomoko was the daughter of my mom’s friend. i think she was older than my brother, who is 3 1/2 years older than me. she was, my mom and i think, my brother’s first love. she stayed over a few days during the summer break. i think she broke my brother’s heart.
she wore a beautiful baby blue long skirt. her long hazelnut hair swayed as she went upstairs with my brother. she had big eyes with long eyelashes, like alice from wonderland. every time she smiled she was like an angel.
maybe she was my first love too.